My Mother

19 years ago my mother suffered a heart attack and 10 days later she passed away. I was 3 months pregnant and this was the worst time in my life. I came home from a night out that night and saw my mom blessing the house she had a ponytail on and I told her she looked cute in it. We went to bed and she forgot to come give me a kiss as she did every night and I told her this and she said she was in bed already and I said I was too, I said jokingly ok well tomorrow don’t forget. Tomorrow never came, she had her heart attack and never regained consciousness and she passed away April 10, 1993 in the wee hours of the morning. I heard the phone call come in telling my dad she had passed. Before that phone call I felt her come to me and kiss me and it felt real not like in a dream. Those ten days I prayed and prayed and prayed for God to heal her completely and let her live and my prayers weren’t answered. It broke my heart she was my hero, she was everything I had. I was 3 months pregnant with my son Aaron Michael Morin and I knew then as I know now he was a blessing that came in to my life because of what was to come. It took years for me to accept the fact that life is about living and dying and that is something that will happen to all of us and at anytime so live for today, always let your loved ones know they are loved, don’t put off for tomorrow things that you can do today, make memories for your children that they can hold dear to their hearts for the rest of their life, don’t waste your time and energy caring for someone that isn’t going to care for you back, when horrible things happen don’t keep asking why because it doesn’t change the fact that it happened it just makes you bitter!!!