I was just a teenager looking for love. All I could find was alot of hurt. Everywhere I turned I saw suffering, Everyplace I went I saw alot of pain. I wasn’t satisfied with what this world had to offer Disappointed with all my ways I prayed to God to help me, help me through this struggle. Help me to be what He wants me to be. Direct me in what He wants me to do. To help me not be afraid of life. So that I can help others. One day my prayers were answered. Someone came into my life. The one and only love. The one and only hope. The one and only dream. No one can be the first love in my life, but the one and only Him. Through His love I found satisfaction. There’s no more hurt in my life ’cause now I have Him. The one and only happiness. The one and only Lord, Jesus Christ.
This was written sometime in high school around 1991 for a poetry contest to be able to go to nationals. I didn’t get to go but the poem was sincere from my heart and at that time I was not lukewarm, I’m not even lukewarm now. Because I have to be either in it 100% or not at all so as not to be a flakey person. Though when I need someone I look to Him, always because I know He’s real.
You were meant for me and I was meant for you. I don’t know who you are and you dont know who I am. One day we will meet and I will know you were who I was waiting for all my life. Every beautiful word I have uttered in silence would have been inspired by you. Every feeling, emotion, desire and thought was for you. If we haven’t met it’s because I wasn’t ready for you or you weren’t ready for me. When the time is right our paths will cross and we will meet. You will complete me and I you. You will be the missing piece to my puzzle and I to yours.
Last night I cried myself to sleep Oh how I wish it would all end. If only I didn’t have to face tomorrow but that’s the coward way out. I caught myself praying asking the one I’ve turned my back on for so long, for help. Oh how easy it would be. God do you hear me? Are you there? I don’t blame you if you’re not. I know it seems like I call on you only when I need something. Somewhere deep deep down I believe. You heard my cry, my cry for help. Cause this morning I should believe I say I don’t trust anyone I know I know I trust you Myr friends may
(I think maybe I wrote this sometime in 1991/1992)
Always be kind to strangers because sometimes people have no control over their words, they don’t even realize they are being rude. They are the ones that need the most understanding and the most patience and most of all deserve to be loved. Our special abilities kids grow up to be adults and they don’t advertise it. So just decide to be kind no matter what. This comes to mind because I think maybe I may have overlooked it at times and reacted negatively when actually I should have ignored.
Don’t give up on love no matter how many times it goes wrong. Don’t hold back on loving because the fear of getting hurt. Take a chance on being in love. Love with all you got. I see so many people nowadays put down love, put down being in love, put down that having feelings for someone is a horrible thing. I can’t imagine never being in love. Sometimes you won’t be loved back and that’s ok because it happens but when you’re loved back that will be what made all them wrongs worth it, because had you not taken any chances you wouldn’t have found the one that loved you back. You are never too old to find it either.
I haven’t posted since January 20 and then I was having a hard time to post. I started working at the beginning of the year, it wasn’t planned so it has taken time to adjust to something new. At first I felt bad because my previous goal was to post something daily even if no one else but me, myself and I would read it but I had no idea what the future held. I haven’t added the gym back into my daily schedule either but I wil have to add that back soon. It will all come together, it didn’t go as planned and that’s ok because it’s ok to change your plans.
Sometimes you just know. It’s a feeling. Sparks. Chemistry. It can be a glance, a smell, a smile, a laugh or a hair-raising touch if it is in person, on cam or on the phone. Or it can be a turn of phrase, a shared interest, an intriguing question or story, perhaps just a photo that causes the heart to flutter during an online chat. It just happens, and it defies explanation. When it works, it just works. But, the likelihood of it happening increases when your attitude is positive. Entering any interaction with a negative attitude seems to deter the likelihood of such a spark. If you’re just looking to put someone down, or win an argument, or prove you’re better than someone, it’s less likely to result in a quality chemical reaction. Anticipating something good begets the possibility of finding the spark. Being mean sets up a bad karmic construct. Be nice. Positive vibes create an atmosphere that allows sparks to fly, where one can catch glimpses of commonalities, of shared tastes for flavors that can be shared with one another, feeding off feelings for each other that can’t be explained. They just happen. But it doesn’t happen as often if you aren’t open to the possibilities. Go with the flow. Follow that spark that created the smile that warmed the heart that caused something to tingle from within. It’s better living through chemistry. When you know, you know. Go with it. As long as there is fuel for the fire, let it burn. It may burn out quickly, but let it warm your soul until it does. Who knows, there’s always the possibility it could be an eternal flame…
People come into your path for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do with that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty… To provide you with guidance and support… To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually… They may seem like they are a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die… Sometimes they walk away… Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand…. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled… Their work is done. The prayer you sent up has now been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON. Because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons. Things you must build upon to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life… Whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime