Always be kind to strangers because sometimes people have no control over their words, they don’t even realize they are being rude. They are the ones that need the most understanding and the most patience and most of all deserve to be loved. Our special abilities kids grow up to be adults and they don’t advertise it. So just decide to be kind no matter what. This comes to mind because I think maybe I may have overlooked it at times and reacted negatively when actually I should have ignored.
“DO SOMETHING UNCOMFORTABLE TODAY BY STEPPING OUT OF YOUR BOX, YOU DON’T HAVE TO SETTLE FOR WHAT YOU ARE. YOU GET TO CREATE WHO YOU WANT TO BECOME.”
Fear has kept me back from lots of things. I am
Why I have to be positive today even when I don’t want to be….well my entire life including my childhood I have suffered from depression. Numerous times I tried to overdose on sleeping pills/tylenol this was as a child. The last time I tried taking my life was when my first born was a baby, I took something over the counter and regretted it and drove myself to the hospital because I knew my son needed me. After that never again did I try it again or did it even cross my mind. My last episode of deep depression was back beginning in 2011 it was the worst it ever got and my husband wasnt supportive and I was ok with him not being but he was also an ass about it too. Even though I was depressed I did go about my every day as nornal or tried at least. Eventually I pulled myself together left my husband and was in a good place. Then my husband would not let me go he continued to try to get me back and well he sweet talked me back…I picked up all my 5 kids again and moved back with my husband to find out within a few weeks he never stopped talking to his whores he was talking to the whole time I went thru my depression and forgave. Thats the moment I lost it, I lost myself, I lost my temper, I lost my mind literally. I went thru a manic episode of everything during that time depression, anxiety and hate I hated my husband during that time with passion…I hated him with my whole heart and my whole life I hated him. But remember I had already picked up yet again my 5 kids and had already marched back home with them so he left for sometime and the hate back and forth between me and him was crazy so crazy my kids had to see it too. There were times I wanted to give up on everything thats the only time I was suicidal again. That was in 2014 then we got back together with all those things we struggled together we picked up and moved to South Dakota in 2016 and I was further from my family and my husband has always put me last on his list of priorities so being alone in a new state it was worse, 2017 passed I was still in a bad place 2018 came and I decided I needed to take care of myself so I could be there for my children so I worked on getting back to my mental and physical state before all of those bad things happened. 2019 came and still no change with my husband so summer 2019 I said eff it Im only giving 5 fucks from now on and thats for my kids and their off spirng. I stopped caring then if my husband put me 1,2 or even last, I didnt care anymore either way. At that moment is when I should have divorced but I didn’t. TO BE CONTINUED
No matter what you say
You saved the day
You wandered my way that night
To help me see the light
I know you have no clue
but for that I genuinely thank you
Please know you didn’t mess up my life
He actually just filled my life with strife
If life gives me another chance
at that thing called romance
I hope it’s with someone just like you.
Funny, sweet, handsome and all the things you never knew.
Don’t give up on love no matter how many times it goes wrong. Don’t hold back on loving because the fear of getting hurt. Take a chance on being in love. Love with all you got. I see so many people nowadays put down love, put down being in love, put down that having feelings for someone is a horrible thing. I can’t imagine never being in love. Sometimes you won’t be loved back and that’s ok because it happens but when you’re loved back that will be what made all them wrongs worth it, because had you not taken any chances you wouldn’t have found the one that loved you back. You are never too old to find it either.
Baby, I sent the day your way. Look up to the skies when you open your eyes. It’s a gift from me to you…. The sun is me sending you a kiss. The rain is tears I cry because it’s you I miss. The wind is me hugging you tight. The sunset is me saying goodnight. ❤😘
….but remember that serenity prayer when you go about with your day today.
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.”
….Don’t go about your day stressing about anything…everything will work out in your favor no matter how much someone tries to knock you down because you are going to make sure of it.
….Don’t let someone rob you of your happiness ever. Never give someone else that power over you.
…Tell/Show someone you love them today before it’s too late.
….Make your health a priority because someone needs you.
I haven’t posted since January 20 and then I was having a hard time to post. I started working at the beginning of the year, it wasn’t planned so it has taken time to adjust to something new. At first I felt bad because my previous goal was to post something daily even if no one else but me, myself and I would read it but I had no idea what the future held. I haven’t added the gym back into my daily schedule either but I wil have to add that back soon. It will all come together, it didn’t go as planned and that’s ok because it’s ok to change your plans.
Sometimes you just know. It’s a feeling. Sparks. Chemistry. It can be a glance, a smell, a smile, a laugh or a hair-raising touch if it is in person, on cam or on the phone. Or it can be a turn of phrase, a shared interest, an intriguing question or story, perhaps just a photo that causes the heart to flutter during an online chat. It just happens, and it defies explanation. When it works, it just works. But, the likelihood of it happening increases when your attitude is positive. Entering any interaction with a negative attitude seems to deter the likelihood of such a spark. If you’re just looking to put someone down, or win an argument, or prove you’re better than someone, it’s less likely to result in a quality chemical reaction. Anticipating something good begets the possibility of finding the spark. Being mean sets up a bad karmic construct. Be nice. Positive vibes create an atmosphere that allows sparks to fly, where one can catch glimpses of commonalities, of shared tastes for flavors that can be shared with one another, feeding off feelings for each other that can’t be explained. They just happen. But it doesn’t happen as often if you aren’t open to the possibilities. Go with the flow. Follow that spark that created the smile that warmed the heart that caused something to tingle from within. It’s better living through chemistry. When you know, you know. Go with it. As long as there is fuel for the fire, let it burn. It may burn out quickly, but let it warm your soul until it does. Who knows, there’s always the possibility it could be an eternal flame…